"Do you want a cookie?" blurts out my husband thoughtlessly.
"Really?!" I exclaimed back at him while lying in bed during my first night home from the hospital.
And that wasn't the last time one of those conversations has occurred in the last few days. There were numerous, "can I pick you up something" questions. But the final straw came this weekend when my husband and stepson were comfortably lounging on the couch eating their Raising Cane's chicken fingers for dinner while I was debating what soup I was going to thin, blend, and strain in an attempt to eat. I may have been demon possessed. It went something like this:
Me: "I have an announcement to make. There is a new rule in this house. NO ONE shall bring Raising Cane's Chicken through the front door until I am able to once again eat solid food."
Chris: "But it's what Tanner wanted for dinner.
Me: "Then you tell him NO. (and I'm pretty sure this came out as a deep growl,it was scary.)
All of that to say, a liquid diet gets to you pretty quickly. Since I arrived home from the hospital, I have had many woes with trying to tolerate whey isolate protein shakes, particularly the powder I have to mix up myself. I get some of it down, but then the nausea inevitably takes over and I can't drink a drop more and it pretty much does me in for the rest of the day. I've tried different brands, they all have the same reactions. So I've moved on to buying the no sugar added Carnation Instant Breakfast. I'm gonna give those a whirl tomorrow morning.
This leaves me with the subject of food obsession. I used to obsess about when my next meal was going to be and what I wanted. Planning lunch during a work day was a major affair. Something that was discussed usually beginning around 10 a.m. However, while I still now obsess about when my next meal is going to be, it's because I have to get 6 meals in a day. And now I obsess about what is it I'm going to have for that said meal that will meet or exceed what I need for the day. I'm supposed to be taking in 60 grams of protein a day and that can be a tall order, especially if protein shakes aren't agreeing with me. Greek yogurt smoothies have been one of my go to's, but they're so thick that I don't get much down. My stomach just isn't that big. I have to be honest and say that I've had some soft scrambled egg whites a couple of days just to get some protein in. It's against protocol, but I get worried and obsess about my protein intake.
So, I either obsess about not getting enough protein, or I obsess that I broke the instructions, or I obsess that I'm not drinking enough water, or I obsess that I haven't gotten all 6 meals in.
But right now, I'm obsessed with Tuna salad. It sounds so good right now.